week one of unemployment. i feel rather odd. i’m in a bubble where its just numb. i kinda hear a buzzing which is similar to one in an industrial plant. i’ve kept in bed most of today. i read, had a nibble, watched tv, surfed the net for new jobs, talked on the phone, stared at the other side of my bed hoping jbs will return sooner than friday. of my temporary mental anguish of wanting to live in my little turtle shell came to an abrupt stop once i realized the moodiness which plagued my serotonin levels.

i think the place which is upon me is rather dark and quiet because i need it. i kept thinking throughout the day how much of a loser i’m probably bring – with a quick chuckle in my head – i then get up to refocus my activities of nothing.